Time is Limited

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.” ~ Steve Jobs,
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Your time is limited

I recently saw this quote subtitled “Your Time is Limited” by Steve Jobs. It’s one of many I found, but this is one that stood out and spoke to me.

I’m not an Apple fan, either in the computer or portable market but I respect the value these devices bring to the global community. I value Steve Jobs genius; if you can call it that. He definitely saw a market for his ideas, and he enjoyed converting his innovations into reality.

When I read this quote, I instantly connected to it. Reflecting upon my early life as a human being, I see where I fell into trap after trap, living the presence of a stranger. I hid the real me from the world. Even to this day, is some ways, I still do.

Staying true

I try hard to stay true to myself. It is hard in the politically correct world that appears to me to grow worse with each passing day. Ever since the failure of my first marriage, I realized the error of my ways, and I am a happier person. It took me decades, but I think I finally found the real me hidden behind all those layers and masks.

Stripping them away, I found that the weight of hiding my true self-was slowly killing me. In the late 1990’s, I knew without a shadow of a doubt, I would be dead within five years, all from the weight of those masks and catsuit personas buried underneath. For a long time, I didn’t even realize what I was doing. Instead, I went about my day submitting to others expectations, not recognizing that my time is limited.

It was killing me.

I had to shed those layers, give up everything I had built, tear it all down, and start all over. What choice did I have? Continue existing an unfulfilling life and die? I finally woke up, slapped my face silly, and made a decision.

It’s a choice I happily made.

Choices and consequences

I’ve still made mistakes along the way, but I’m learning from each one. How does one stop making mistakes? I don’t know. What I do know is that from the errors, opportunities arise to learn from them and not repeat them. An ambitious goal I know. Yet I persevere on.

latex catsuitAm I where I want and need to be? No, not even close and I doubt I will ever get there. Still, I am miles further down that road than when I wore all of those masks and catsuits. Why is that? Keeping my business career separate from my personal life is one.

There are times when I often yearn to work for a company in the sex industry just so I can open up more, be more of my true self. Right now, reserved at work, I keep much of myself bottled up and behind a mask, and enveloped with an impermeable catsuit. I dive into my projects with a zeal that prevents the rest of me from breaking out.

At home, unlike friends you can pick and choose, family is something that you have to accept. Well usually. Out of respect for family, I also cover up some of the real me, though everyone knows that there is more to me than they care to recognize. Fortunately, I do have a sibling whom I share most everything with, and while they don’t understand, they accept me for whom I am and don’t judge me according to their standards.

What now?

Now that I have reached an age of enlightenment, I recognize I have just so many decades left to live my life. Time is limited. Steve Jobs advises that we should not live the results of other peoples think, don’t let their noise drown out your inner voice, and dare to follow your heart.

Time flysI am doing the best I can to follow that advice. I might even call it dogma. As the days pass, I forge ahead, if ever so slowly, feeling the happiness it brings, while doing the best I can to mitigate the barriers to reaching that goal. I’ll never, ever give up.

I can’t help but wonder, are you living your life and not someone else’s life?

I hope you are, but as you do so, you respect my right to live my life as I want to, and those of others all across the planet.

Have a good day and a better tomorrow. This is your favorite author, Richard Verry, signing off for now. I’ve got a new book to write.

Time slips by

Snoopy Happy Dance

Hello, everyone. I’ve been meaning to write and have gotten bogged down in posting an entry in my blog. Damn, it’s been, what two weeks, since I updated it. Sorry folks.

To catch you up, my regular full-time job that pays the bills interfered with attending to my website, writing, and of course updating my blog. Unlike most careers I’ve worked, the month of August is one of the toughest, most demanding months in the entire calendar. What I actually want to be doing is sitting on a beach, soaking in the sun, drinking a cocktail, read a good book, take a swim in whatever ocean I’m sitting in front of, and of course, writing my next great novel.

Time FliesNot going to happen.

What is going on is that I leave work, spend an hour or more at the gym, and barely have enough energy to eat dinner and spend a little time with my girlfriend, only to fall asleep in the chair in the living room. I’m ready for bed by 8? WTF? Multiply this by 14, and you know what I mean.

On weekends, I’ve been able to recover somewhat through rest, but it takes the entire weekend to do it. However, I try to fit in a couple of hours either with formulating and writing several notes for my next novel or by working on my new website design.

I happy to say, I like the new design, and it’s probably ready for real-time. However, I can’t check the security cert yet, which means I can’t check the online purchase modules. Hopefully, I can work with my hosting provider and work out those details this week. If I can, I’ll be promoting the new site this coming weekend. Look for it.

Snoopy Happy Dance

I’ve also been checking sales, and pages read of my books. I’m pleased to see what’s happening. Thank you to each and every one of you who either purchased outright or read my stuff via Kindle Unlimited. The book release of ‘The Trafficking Consortium’ has jump started the lagging sales of my other books. Even the free copy of ‘Her Client’ didn’t do that, as I had hoped. Sales of my other books have also jumped back on the charts.

Thank you, everyone. You are making the months of July and August a happy time for me. One that I seriously need.

As I wrote the last couple of sentences, I couldn’t help but think of Snoopy (from the Peanuts® cartoon) jumping up and down in joy. You put smiles on my face over these past several stressful days when I needed them the most.

Next on the agenda, seriously begin writing the next great novel. Hopefully, I can get it ready for the winter holidays. Until next time, have a great day and a better tomorrow.