Who am I?
I’ve often wondered who am I? What do I want? Why am I so passionate about my writing? I don’t know if I can ever answer these questions. I know this. I will continue asking myself these questions until I am six feet in the ground.
I am the son of a war veteran who, upon return home fighting for his country, found his bride moved on in life, leaving him and a baby behind. I suppose I should consider myself lucky as I was born to his second wife. Otherwise, I might not be around today. Both were creative people. Dad’s creativity came from his soul but had a technique like I’ve never seen before. Mom had artistic talent but little skill. Consequentially, I inherited some from each of them. However, just not enough to know what to do with it. I had to figure that out all on my own.
What makes me … me?
What’s to say about me? Thousands of images and scenes flow through my mind day and night. I can’t capture them all. I wish I could, though I try in my artwork and writing. Still, so many of them get away from me. Most of all, I want more. I need more.
I love everything I create. I pour my soul is into each of every project, be it crafts, artwork or my favorite, my stories and novels. However, they fall short. It takes too much time to build a scene, capturing the nuances I want to incorporate. Most of all, I want more. I need more. Nothing is impossible. What do you know? There’s my motto again.
My stories do a better job of capturing some of these images, bombarding my thoughts. It is why I like to paint realism and write dramatic fiction centered on fantasy, sci-fi, and the beautifully impressive, naked female form. Ah, women, aren’t they are all beautiful? In a novel, I can frame dozens of fleeting images into scenes within a single story, capturing my characters’ thoughts and behaviors. Hence, I found that I can seize my imagery using words. It’s beautiful and makes me thrilled. As you read my stories or view my paintings, you can visualize that I apply my motto in my creative works just as I do in my everyday life. Maybe even more so.
Revealing my true self is still scary in a politically correct world. With social media, the public routinely chastises the slightest offhand comment or opinion with outrage and indignity. Some say I have a deviant spirit. Maybe I do.
Many people ask me why I think so much as they don’t see me that way? Some embrace what I expose, while others do not. I have decades of experience hiding parts of me from the world. However, I’m learning to rewrite those feelings and embrace who I am, the real me. Thankfully, I have exceptional people in my life who allow me the freedom to be who I honestly am, to explore my inner self, and live by my motto.
So, there you have it.
I’m a free-spirit man embracing as much as I can, accepting others and their beliefs, even if those beliefs may make me nauseous. I will never try to change anyone, and I expect they, in turn, will not work to change me. Therefore, I am open-minded enough to understand that not everything may be the truth. I question everything, demanding to know the authoritative source of any supposed fact tossed at me. From that, I make my judgments and act accordingly.